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The day the wonderland collapsed around Alice

Alice suddenly found herself smiling at a text message and looked up to see if anyone had noticed; she took solace that, for once, the fact that no one paid her much attention had actually shown benefits. She had been texting a boy for a few days, knowing that it would likely never go anywhere and strangely not knowing whether or not she wanted it to. It had been about a week since Joel had talked to her, but she wasn’t going to let it bring her down. He was with Madison and had never really shown much interest, so she attempted to brush him off by texting this new boy. She finally allowed herself to stop thinking about his perfect black hair, sexy lip ring, and the way he laughed whenever she tried to make a joke, most people didn’t find her as funny as he seemed to and she enjoyed that attention. She typed back, dreading the fact that once he fell asleep she would go right back to reminiscing about the strong friendship she’d developed with Joel, she’d replay the memories in her head for the hundredth time, she’d remember his kiss with Madison the very day she’d planned to tell him how she felt, and, worst of all, she’d remember the way her tears tasted that evening. It was going to be a long night.

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Experimenting with point-of-view

One day in my shoes and you’d know that something is missing, one day within the confines of my mind and you’d know exactly what that missing piece is.

Ever since the day I had allowed her to walk out of my life, or rather I pushed her out of it, I had been so lonely. Without her, who was I to confide my deepest thoughts, feelings, and problems to? Who was I supposed to run to when things in my life got difficult? Some may say my parents, but they had proven to be unhelpful. My mother tried to listen, but she had too many other things to deal with that my childish problems seemed obsolete and my father had never been one for feelings. Occasionally, I would turn to my friends, but they only ever wanted wanted to talk about drugs or brag about all of their sexual conquests. To be honest, I often question the validity of such stories because I’ve seen Randy talk to girls before and it had never gone well; he expected us to feel that when no one was around he was a natural with the fairer sex. I’m not buying it.

The last day of school I told my mom I was sick when, in reality, I wasn’t looking forward to saying goodbye to the girl who still had my heart. I know she thinks I don’t love her anymore, but that’s all a front. I act as if she is nothing but the dirt beneath my feet, little does she know she’s every song on my favorite playlist that constantly plays through my headphones every day a school, she’s the doodles on the corners of my assignments, and she’s the images and “what it” fantasies my mind plays for me at night. Every time I see her it’s as if my heart has been run over, but it’s behind the wheel. What a tragedy that I had the nerve to think I was too good for that girl or that we were in some way boring or void of passion. I was crazy and, for that, I must pay the ultimate price of watching her make some other man’s dreams come true…

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Judgement.

This post is about a few things, but mostly it’s about my mother. Before I start this, you have to know that I love her… she’s always there for me and she really is a great person. She’s strong, independent and she’s been through a ton in her life. However, just like all moms do, sometimes she drives me crazy; she tends to be kind of judgemental and even hypocritical at times. Bare with me.

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Reflection.

Today was the worst kind of day. You probably won’t expect what I’m going to say and, honestly, you may not fully understand it. I haven’t thought much about Ethan at all, I’m not even sure how long ago we broke up (haha). But today I was in Journalism and got all of my stories in for the school paper because the deadline is tomorrow. The editor, Jasmine, came up to me after class and said, “Sydney, I’m mad at you for not being in here last year. You’re so good at this.” It made me feel so special and like I have talent, my self-esteem even raised a few points. Then this sinking feeling set in and I felt just a tiny bit of water building in my eyes.

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Friday Advice 3

Q: I recently told my best guy friend/ex-boyfriend that i really like him, over text message, cause i was too afraid. But it was his friend who saw the message, and then they texted me as him saying that he loved me. When i walked into class the next day, he and his friends were there, and they were laughing their heads off at me. And he didn’t do anything. I don’t know how to talk to him about it, but I don’t want to lose him. What should i do?

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Friday Advice Pitch

I’d love to hear what you guys think of this new idea, feel free to comment below or email me! (:

I want to start something new with the goal of getting my readers more actively involved in my blog! So, starting on Friday October 19th, I will doing kind of an advice column here on the blog.

If you need advice on ANY TOPIC, send your questions and whatever details are necessary to my email, which is blog.offmychest@gmail.com with the subject line “Friday Advice.” If I get a lot of emails, I’ll have to pick just a few to answer and maybe save some for a slower week. Hopefully, I’ll be able to get to every problem and I’ll really be able to help you out. It’ll be completely anonymous so don’t be afraid- I promise I don’t bite (:

Thanks guys! I hope you like this idea and that you continue reading my blog (and enjoying it)! I love you all ❤

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Making Connections.

Today I met an older man; he was adorable, as most old men are, and he was also part of a group called Kiwanis. He started talking to me at a club meeting after school, he was so nice! He started asking about what colleges I’m looking at, what I want to do with my future, ect. And then he began talking about all of his connections which had not only helped him out, but had enabled him to help other people, mostly other students like myself.

After that conversation I really started thinking about connections I’ve made in my own life. First of all, I have my friends which who’s to say what they’ll do with their futures, I have an internship with a grass roots campaign to help re-elect President Obama, and there are other various ways I’ve already met some potentially important people. I would like to make a shout out to a girl that I’ve started talking to over emails, while we’re on this subject– http://ryahchu.wordpress.com/ Ryah is seriously an amazing girl, so you should go follow her blog!

This is kind of a short post, not really ultra important, but it’s the truth. Networking is an important part of our world and I’ve been lucky enough to already meet some great people! ❤

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Issues and Beliefs- Pt. 1

If you don’t pay much attention to politics, bare with me and read this whole post. Odds are you’ll be voting in the next few years (maybe even this year) so you might as well hear someone’s opinion. Political shows are a little dull sometimes and you, as teenagers, have better things to do- trust me I feel the same way most of the time. The thing is, I love politics. I love being informed and making my own decisions- it feels good. Anyways, I promise not to try to sway you. You, as part of America’s (or the world’s) youth are our future doctors, lawyers, teachers, mothers, fathers, and even politicians. So, seriously, read this post- there are some things you should know about the politics of this country in 2012. Things that I never dreamed would suddenly become relevant again but, somehow, here they are. And, it’s cool to have your own opinions, and to share them! I would actually love to hear what you think but don’t knock my views or be rude about it. Thanks (:

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A sad moment- there’s a site for that.

By the title you might have guessed that I’m in a bad mood and need a little venting session. If so, you’d be correct! My boyfriend has been off on a camping trip with his friends for the past week, which is good! I’m glad he’s getting to spend time with them and have fun. I’ve also been keeping busy with my two and a half friends, baseball, family, and, tomorrow, a concert! My week hasn’t been bad at all except that he’s missing… the most important person in the world, next to family. He’s been off on this fun adventure with spotty phone coverage and whatnot. I’m not one of those girls who always needs a man to be happy- but I need this man. I’m so sad without him, it’s crazy… I’ve never felt this way about anyone. Especially because tomorrow’s our six month anniversary. That doesn’t seem like too long but, trust me, it feel like I’ve known him forever. I know it’s too soon to say he’s the one or we’re going to get married because I don’t know what the future holds- what I am saying is that if we were around twenty-five right now, I’d marry him. I love him that much, more than I ever thought I was capable of loving someone. So when it’s FINALLY Monday and I get to see my boy, I will be more than happy. I don’t have a word for how thrilled I’ll be just to see him smile (: I just hope that I make him half as happy as he makes me. Because if I do, this relationship isn’t going anywhere, it’ll be here for quite awhile. Not seeing him for even just a week is so hard for me!

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